Cranergy

I found this great site called Missed Connections. I posted it on my side links so you guys should go check it out. It's really sweet and makes you think, "What would've happened if I had talked to that person?"

Not A Love Poem

This is not a love poem. This is a poem written for a beautiful young girl who will be swept off her feet. This is not a poem to make a young man fall in love with me. This is not a poem about Alan Guzman, Zach Lovell or Ben Mulch. This is not a poem about Orlando Bloom. This is not a poem about Taylor Lautner. This is not a poem about Jude Law. This is not a poem about Emile Hirsch, Ryan Renyolds or George Clooney. This is not a poem about how much his smile makes me melt. This is not a poem about how I get weak in the knees at the sight of his eyes. This is not a poem about me in a white dress. This is not a poem about stolen glances or quick kisses. This is not a poem about that one time when we baked cookies. This is not a poem about the first time we held hands or our lips touched and my heart almost stopped. This is not a poem about me playing our song over and over before I go to bed. This is not a poem about holding me close before drifting off to sleep. This is not a poem about our first fight. This is not a poem about missed connections. This is not a poem about how you broke my heart or crushed my dreams. This is not a poem asking “What if…” This is not a poem telling everyone how fantastic So-And-So was or what Whats-His-Face said. This is not a poem preaching to the choir about how to find love. This is not a poem saying how much I love you or him or that guy over there. This is not a poem about you.

No Matter How Much It Hurts

If you love someone you let them go,
no matter how much it hurts.
It always hurts the most when it’s the one you love the most.

He didn’t even bat an eye at me
when he walked out the door, but
if you love someone you let them go.

Watching him walk into the arms of another
and seeing him embrace her like there was no tomorrow
It always hurts the most when it’s the one you love the most.

Our song spins over and over on the turntable
it’s words never losing meaning.
If you love someone you let them go.

Snow falls in fat flakes onto the window pane
that we used to look out onto from the living room.
It always hurts the most when it’s the one you love the most.

I promised myself I wouldn’t fall for anyone
But you are the only exception, but
If you love someone you let them go
It always hurts the most when it’s the one you love the most.

1/15/10

So, I'm sitting in the hotel, eating left over Chinese food from this afternoon and just waiting for the hotel staff to yell at me for getting soy sauce on the table. It's not nearly as cold or windy as I thought it would be. But the tax prices are even higher than I thought. The cookies on the front desk aren't warm at all and thoroughly disappointed me, but so it goes. Jerry Lewis is watching me as he peers down from the walls, his eyes lost in dark shadows and a cigarette in his hand. I take a pen from the desk drawer and will most likely forget about it for a few more days. The city sparkles with excitement and the pigeons even have a law just for them. I can feel the magic in the air with each step on the gritty sidewalk and with each brush of cold air against my flushed cheeks.

"Learn your rules, you better learn your rules"

So, in the past year, I've gone though a lot of changes with my hair. First, it was long and kinda of a mess. Like the picture below, it just looks I have no idea what I want.
Then I cut all my hair off. And it just felt awesome. I didn't look like everyone else and I felt like a whole new person.

Then today happened.

LIVE

Ok, so my New Years Resolution this year is to live life. How am I going to do that you may ask? Easy. I made a list. I will try and do everything on this list this year. Lets see how this goes.

1. Dye my hair
2. Get a tattoo
3. Road trip somewhere (maybe Ohio or Florida)
4. Write more letters
5. De-clutter my closet/life
6. Sell merch for a band
7. Get a better job in college
8. Wear heels more often
9. Dance more
10. Buy flirty perfume and wear it
11. Play JJ more
12. Play at least one show with JJ
13. See more local shows
14. See more shows in general
15. Travel to see a band
16. Finish writing something
17. Get my lip pierced
18. Go skinny dipping
19. Cook for myself more often
20. Bake a cute boy a plate of cookies
21. Move out.

There you go. A list of 21 things to do this year.

Feel free to join me on my journey to live life =]

you look the part but looks dont tell the truth

My New Years Resolution this year is to live. Like, I don't think I've ever really lived and I think after 17 years it might be a good idea to start. How am I going to achieve this you ask? I'll post a list on New Years with everything I would like to achieve this year then when I do achieve that, I'll blog about it! How easy is that?

Ok, I have 2 days to come up with a list. Wish me luck =]