City Folk

I've been writing a lot lately. It's been pretty good. Besides the insomina that I've been having recently, life is pretty good. I've been reaching out to tons of people about Christ and it's awesome. God has big big plans for me! I can't wait to find out what more of them are. Not only did I get interviewed by the biggest newspaper in St. Louis, but my church now wants to interview me, which is freaking awesome!!

Goodbye 2008!
Hello 2009!!


John 14:1-6

Chirstmas was...plesant. My mom behaved and didn't make me feel bad as much as she had the day before. She just gets that way sometimes and I don't think she realizes what she's saying is hurting me super bad. Oh well, what are you gonna do? But if she keeps pulling stuff like this, I'm just not ever gonna visit when I get older. I'll stay on campus over breaks or visit with other people's familes.


So this is Christmas?

I was in an article today in the Post-Dispatch. I was so proud of it and what I was doing. Personally, I thought I was doing a great thing by speaking and telling my story. My mom, on the other hand, didn't. She means well, I think, but she just doesn't understand. Just because I was baptized as a baby and confirmed, even though I was a non-believer, dosen't mean I'm a Christian. But because I've seen what God has done for me in my life and given my life to Jesus Christ, I am one. I owe everything to Jesus becuase he died for me, and that's the best Christmas gift ANYONE could ever ask for.

I also didn't win this contest, but that's ok, cause the winner was picked at random, and I'm tottaly fine with it. I was maybe upset for all of 30 secounds. But Blake's all like, you need to write to him and make him give you the prize. I'll write to him. And he's taking it out of control. I know he means well, but if I really was mad, I would try and do something, but I'm not.

Oh well, I guess life doesn't always go according to plan...



I have my English final over Catcher in the Rye today. Then I have my Algebra final.

Wish me luck!!



No school today...

My day was more fun that it would've been at school


Drive Thru

Man...I'm not so sure what's going on right now...Maybe it'll get better...


Why do I always go back to him? He calls and I go to meet him.


I missed him a lot though...So it was good to see him...I guess...No, it really was. But it doesn't make my life any easier right now, that's fer sure.


Leave Out All The Rest

I may or may not go to Fish Club tonight, even though i probably should.
I may or may not go to school tomorrow, even though my parents will probably make me.

Pawpaw is with Jesus now and no longer in pain. I thank God for that. It's so wonderful having a God that will take care of you and give his one and only son to us so that we can have eternal salvation.

Acts 18:9-10 "Don't be afarid! Speak out! Don't be silent! For I am with you"


Wake Up Slow

I love Christmas. I honestly do. I don't like the whole, receiving thing though. I'm more of a giver, and if someone would rather donate money to a charity than buy me a Christmas present, I'm all for that.

Since I have 2 older brothers, I would like to think that I, too, have had to grow up with them. I've been told I'm extremely mature for my age, mostly by my co-workers. Let me clear that last bit up for you. Currently, I work at Starbucks and I'm the youngest person that works there. It's fun and I've met a lot of really neat people, and most of them can't believe that I'm only 16.

But anyway, back to the whole, No Gifts on Christmas thing. If I do ask for something for Christmas or my birthday, I try to make it really big. Example 1: Last year for Christmas, I asked for a acoustic guitar and nothing else. I got my acoustic guitar and nothing else from my parents. Example 2: For the past...3 birthdays, I've only asked for one thing and I haven't had a birthday party since the 7th grade. 8th grade, I went and saw RENT at the Fox Theatre with my mom. 9th grade, I saw Relient K with some of my friends. 10th grade, I went up to Chicago with my parents and saw Wicked. I'm not sad or bitter that I get only one present, I think it shows my maturity. But who knows, maybe I'm just a freak.

Like, I can't stand when people spend money on me. Like my boyfriend for example. I HATE when he pays for things like a movie ticket or something else that is useless and mundane. It frustrates me because I'm just as able to pay for myself if he didn't pay for me. IDK, maybe I am a freak.


Sand In Your Shoes

I've decided that I don't care if I work at Starbucks for the rest of my life, I just want to be able to write and have some way to support myself


My Aching Stomach is Always Honest About Me and You

Currently, I am:
1. Doing Laundry
2. Working on my poem about Tim Burton
3. Listening to The Starlight Getaway
4. Thinking about today's events

Ok...So...During lunch, I found out who my real friends are. It sucks cause I thought I could count on at least one of these people to help me out. And I know it's stupid to be upset over the fact that my friends didn't save me a seat at lunch, but I don't really care. It's such a middle school thing to do. And the worst part was, my boyfriend's brother was there and now he's going to go home and tell him all about what happened and I'm going to sound like the bad guy.

Why can't high school just end?

Psalm 119:133-134
Keep steady my steps according to your promise, and let no sin have domion over me. Redeem me from man's opression that I may keep your word.


Jeans and Roses

You know how when you have something really wonderful, it's hard to picture yourself without it? That's how I feel right now. I'm so in love with this sweet wonderful guy who buys me roses and is going to take me to see Twilight.

But at the same time, I feel really bad, cause I feel like I'm leading this other guy on. I told him I have a boyfriend but we're still planning on hanging out over break.

I really need to figure out this week. It's going to be CRAZY!!!

1 John 3:18
"Little children, let us not love with word or tongue, but in deed and in truth"


De Cluttering Facebook

These are some random quotes on facebook that I wanted to get off my page but still have value, so they're going on here. =]


Ok, first we're going to do building brides. Then we're gonna do Chris. Wait! Who has the dirty mind now?!

To write something, you have the risk of making a fool of yourself
-Anne Rice

At this moment, there are 6,470,818,671 people in the world. Some are running scared. Some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day. Others are just now facing the truth. Some are evil men, that war with good. And some are good, struggling with evil. 6 billion people in the world. 6 billion souls. And sometimes, all you need is one.



Am I doing something wrong? Am I giving off some kind of vibe that tells him that he shouldn't want me? I feel so lost and confused. I love him so much... I think he's starting to get bored with me... I can't believe it, I won't believe it. And this next month is gonna be super hard cause I won't get to see him much. I mean, I deliberately am staying back a day from camping just so I can be with him... Why won't he see that I care for him and that I ache when he's not around? Why won't he confide in me??


Wet Hair

I'm getting ready to go to my Unitarian church now. I'm tring to show them that not all Christians are crazy bible bashers. It might be hard, but IDK yet.

I'm baking cupcakes this afternoon for the girls in a freshmen small group to give them encouragement. I hope it works...

For God does not show favoritism - Romans 2:11



Ok, so I always try and make time for my boyfriend. Weither it's be going over to his house just to say hi or picking him up from work. But it seems like he NEVER makes time for me.
Like, today for example, I asked him yesterday if he wanted to see me after he got off of work so he could take a look at my laptop, and he was like, ok. I call him this afternoon and he sounded surprised by it. He said that he was cleaning his room and that he would have to get back to me to see if he could hang out later.
I'm not really sure what to do. I've been doing homework all afternoon and I need a break!



I'm beginning to think that I am my own distraction for school.

Well, let me start over. I detest school. I would rather be in a constant state of nothing than have to go to school. It puts me under so much stress and I can't take it.

I get headaches every other day now cause of school. I just wanna be out of that school and get on with the rest of my life. I could live in the middle of nowhere and be happier than be at school.


Relient K

I love Relient K. I'm so exicted to see them! October 30 is when they'll be at the Pageant. I can't wait! Hopefully I'll get TONS of pictures of them. They are my all time favorite band. =]

Jesus loved the outcast
-Relient K


The Loop

So, today I'm going to the Loop with my friends Nicole and Naomi along with this girl from Austria, Verionika. I'm super excited cause I haven't been to the Loop in forever. I love hanging out with Nicole and Naomi. Nicole recently has been getting more involved with her faith, which I think is awesome! She really just needs some positive energy surrounding her right now and I'm so happy for her.

I'm trying to evangelize more. So maybe when I go to the Loop today, I'll ask people if they know about Jesus. A lot of people think that they really do know him, but they really don't.

If you guys ever want to know about Jesus, just ask me and I'll answer questions in my next post. =]

Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, and in purity. 1 Timothy 4:12