The Big Clean- Day 1

Ok, so today is the first day of The Big Clean. I have some before pictures of my room to give you guys an idea of what it looks like right now and what I’ve been living with for over 2 years. 001 002 003 004 005 006 007

The ONLY reason it looks remotely clean is because our cleaning lady came today and I decided I needed a little extra help. She’s gone now so the rest is on my own. I’m putting on a CD so that when it’s done, I’ll take a break and maybe take a picture or two to show my progress. =]


The Big Clean

So Thursday is when I start The Big Clean. Before June is over, I plan on having everything in my room taken out so I can paint the walls and rearrange somethings. Thursday is when everything starts. I'm going to try and get the list below this little rant done before next Thursday. Lets see how this goes =]

1. Sort through books and decide which ones to keep/not keep.
2. Same thing as 1 but with clothes.
3. Get all those random boxes out
4. Recycle the magazines that I don't read anymore.
5. Recycle all the random water bottles I know I'm going to find.
6. Get papers and random crap out of my vanity and get that organized.

I'll most likely add more to this list after Thursday cause I just need a bunch of stuff to get done so I can start to rearrange and organize my room.


I Saw It On Your Keyboard

The pencils lay abandoned on the floor
where the flicker of the candle plays off
the paper.
Warm laundry sits in the basket
begging to be put away.
A tilting stack of books
threatens to fall over into a pile
of colorful yarn.
Magazines where the models are too thin lay
next to the closet and a Christmas tree
nightlight sits on the window sill.
Three bottles of lotion form their own
Bermuda Triangle around the Teen Spirit
and piles of mix CD's beg to be listened to.
A young girl is slumped on the squeaky bed
a small bear in her arms as she dreams of
a day where she can be with her only love
and have a room
that is not as


its the moon the sun and the sky

I'm so ready to be done with school it's not even funny. But the only reason I want to be done is so I can see James because it feels like I haven't seen him in ages. Work is taking up a lot of my time too and hopefully I won't have to close a whole bunch over the summer so I can spend more time with him. It's...it's just hard now cause his family is in town and I know family has to come first before me but I just wanna go kidnap him so I can at least spend some time with him. He would never fly for that though.

On a lighter note, I don't have to go to school tomorrow and I don't have to work so that means I get to sleep in. =]

Song of the moment: Single Millionaires by Brighten


I'm just chasing the wind

I don't really see the point in auditioning for plays anymore. Yes, I do miss the stage more than anything, but it's just really hard to walk into my acting class and having to learn from someone who didn't want you in their production. I see it as just a waste of my time to call me back when in the end, I'm not even choosen for the part. I waste so much time and energy worrying about if I made it or not and in the end, I don't. For the past 2 years, I've auditioned twice for the senior one acts, and 5 main stage productions. I've been in one show. I'm thinking about talking to Forrest or something to see if there is something wrong with me because I really do like acting, and I think if they were to see me potray someone who isn't easy on stage, they could see that I can be really good. We're doing 12th Night for our next production and auditions are in September. Hopefully some miricle will happen and I'll be cast for that. If not...My love of theatre may just stop in the seats and I'll never be able to be on stage again.


And I asked when

Right now as I type this, I'm sitting in my basement cause I'm scared that there is a torando warning in the area. Just to be safe, I decieded to go away from the party and sit down here where it is somewhat safe. It's kinda freaky, but what else am I supposed to do? Stand up there and play babysitter and listen to drunk adults laugh?
I just hope I can still go see Angels & Deamons tonight with James. I really hope the weather stops being so nasty so I can go.
Everyone is freaking out at work too cause our new shift, Matt, just quit, which is so lame cause he just started like, 2 weeks ago. Then Ben is being really mean to Jess even though she just got out of the hospital. I really dont' wanna go in tomorrow but I have to in order to help Jess out.
But I do get my hair cut tomorrow which is awesome! =] I'll post pictures as soon as I can.

Current Song: Confessions by City and Colour


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So…IDK….I feel like I need to change the way I act. But if I did that, then I wouldn’t be me, ya know? BUT if it makes my friends like me more, is that a plus? I guess I don’t really need their approval as long as I have God’s. It’s just hard sometimes I guess. I’ll have to work on it I think.



First off, Wolverine was amazing!!! Go see it now!!!

But besides that, I’m having lots of mixed emotions right now about lots of things. I’m not sure yet if I want to go into detail about everything yet, maybe later….


Happy Mother’s Day!!!!!


Iced Grande Soy Vanilla Latte for here

Ok, so I'm at Starbucks working on some homework for English. I was working on my Great Gatsby paper, but I got sick of it so now I'm blogging. Also, I totally downed that latte. It was yummy =]
But so yeah, school sucks right now and I'm just waiting for it to get done. Our Seniors get out on Friday, but everyone else is stuck until the 27. Oh well, C'est la vie.
I decided to make a music video to Brett Dennen's "Ain't No Reason". I hope it turns out well. Now, I just need to get people to be in it. lol
Wish me luck!

Currently listening to: The Better Way by Brighten