Let Me Tell You...

What a great weekend I've had. Well, it's also been quite confusing. I blame the men that drift in and out of my life for this bit. Anyways, I finally feel settled in my little apartment. There are no longer any boxes just laying about, my fridge is slowly getting full of yummy foods. I'm even on my 2nd candle!

The other day, I blogged about how I was having awful anxiety about riding my bike. This past Friday was so beautiful and nice out that I couldn't not ride my bike to my friends house. He lives the perfect distance away for riding bikes to and from. So I did it. And it was amazing. Still not ready to venture onto the major streets by myself yet, but doing the side streets are just fine and dandy for me. I almost did get doored, but I think they saw me in time so no harm was done. =]

Now, it is gross and rainy outside. Good thing my apartment needs to be picked up! It's nice to be able to keep up a home and take care of it. I love it.

But it does get lonely sometimes.
But then I cuddle up on my couch and watch Merlin and it's all good.


Bike Power

Today, after the storm clouds cleared today on my quiet little street in Chicago, I had the urge to ride my bike to the music store and buy guitar picks. The store was less than a mile away, the perfect distance for a ride.

And yet...

I was having awful anxiety. My stomach was churning and my heart was pounding. I couldn't even ride down my street! The huge line of cars that lined my block only intimidated me more. I think that cars can smell fear, so if you're scared of getting hit by a car while out on your bike, the chances of you getting hit or doored is more likely. But that's just a theory.

Chicago is a very bike happy city. There are a few major roads by me (Damen and Lincoln) that even have shared bike lanes. But I still have this anxiety that I'm going to fall or get hit by a car or a bus or something awful. Maybe if I go riding with other bikers this anxiety will slowly start to go away.

Don't get me wrong, I love walking places and taking the bus or train. But sometimes, it would be nice to not have to pay $2+ to go somewhere when I could easily hop on my bike.

I don't know. I just hope it gets easier.


Sigh No More

Today is my first day living in my new apartment. I have it all to myself, which so far isn't too lonely. Already, I can feel myself having a routine, which is a plus for me because I need that in order to feel productive. So far today I have already done so much and feel so productive. Tomorrow, I will start running so that I don't get lazy. But I don't foresee that happening, seeing as how I'm a nanny and will have to be playing with the kiddos in the afternoons and already today I've walked over a mile. Might go for another walk this evening if it's not raining.

So far though, I'm quite happy. This is going to be good for me. I just know it.



My life has been summed up in a series of boxes.

I'll be moving again on Saturday. All my posters are down, my books packed away. Most of my clothes have been stuffed into bags or into boxes. It's times like these where I really wish I could just fit everything into a huge backpack and be able to pick up and move at a moments notice.

Is it sad if I ask for more boxes?

Or maybe roommates who aren't awful. She will not be missed one bit. All the others will though. They were good people.

Life will be better outside the dorms. At least I hope so.



I want to bake a peach pie for you.

No really, I do. I'll get the peaches from the farmer's market a little way's from my new house even though the recipe I'm using says to used canned peaches (yuck). When no one is looking, I'll take a bite out of one, letting the juices drip slowly down my chin, landing on my shirt which will leave a stain for the rest of the day. The soft peach fuzz will send shivers down my spine while the hottest afternoon sun is high in the sky as I take another bite out of the candy like fruit. A cool summer breeze will blow through the open window, tickling the nape of my neck while I prepare the crumble for the top of the pie. While I would love to lounge all day in the sun with you, I have work to do and the grass tends to cut up my legs and make them itch.

Let me finish my pie, then we can go play. I promise. =]


Starting Off Right

Happy May everyone!

I thought I'd start off May with a playlist. Since I have finals coming up during the next two weeks, posts will be slightly limited (maybe), but I will try and update as much as I can.

1. Our Song - The Spill Canvas
2. Mysterious Power - Ezra Furman & The Harpoons
4. I Want To Know Your Plans - Say Anything
5. Two Tongues - The Spill Canvas
6. When We Fall In - Sean Hayes
7. Ghouls - We Are Scientists 
8. Teenage Wasteland - Ezra Furman & The Harpoons
9. At Or With Me - Jack Johnson
9. Lost Kid - The Apache Relay
10. Any Way You Want It/Lovin' Touchin' Squeezin' - Glee Cast (Judge all you want. I love Glee)
11. Savannah - Relient K
12. Coffee Shop Soundtrack - All Time Low
13. Cold Hard Bitch - Jet
14. Forget and Not Slow Down - Relient K
15. After Hours- We Are Scientists

But yeah. This is what I'm listening to today while I study and be a college student.